Kick me in the Teeth

Makes me sick to only be able to look at what I want to do.  Just get up in the night, and work on it.  The physical manifestation of my delusional dreams.  That I only get to look at what others do and remember that I once had my dream in stark reality.  A shop space that most guys who knew me then would kick in someones teeth to get.  I gave this up.  My dream then became a nightmare...a savage frothing demon that I had to wrestle with to pay the bills.  I knew I wanted a shop...just not be a business man. 
Now I search the "magical" world of on-line and look at the dedication of others...
Just kick in my fuckin teeth. 
If you read this and think that you can understand...don't ever read another word I write...go out, do your deeds and strap a belt across the demon that sits in the back of your mind, waiting, panting, gasping for the air and blood and sweat you have to give to make that dream live.  Give it everything you have, everything that you can beg, borrow or steal.  Push it out into the world like a screaming child.  Give it all.  Never look at what others are doing and if someone tells you.."I'd do this if I were you..."  Tell them "Fuck, go try it yourself." 
Yeah, don't let it go away.  You cry like hell when you realize you didn't try everything. 

I'll still build. Always will.  I love the sight of blood on a grease covered hand. 

Just make sure it's yours.